Fic: The Edge (Alice/Bella, Twilight 5/?)
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fembuckAuthor: Janine
Fandom: Twilight
Pairing: Alice/Bella
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: All characters are owned by Stephanie Meyer. I’m just borrowing them.
Summary:
Prologue: Golden Slumber
Part 1: Skating the Edge
Part 2: My Favorite Mistake
Part 3: The Rules of Attraction
Part 4: Shattered
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Later That Night
Bella tossed her hacky sack ball in the air with her good arm and caught it.
Bella tossed her hacky sack ball in the air with her good arm and caught it.
Bella tossed her hacky sack ball in the air with her good arm and caught it.
Bella tossed her hacky sack ball in the air with her good arm and caught it.
Bella sighed and tilted her head back against her mattress. Her body was exhausted but she couldn’t sleep. She just kept on going over the events of the night in her mind, over and over and over again, her heart squeezing painfully every time she thought of Alice or Edward.
She couldn’t understand how she had managed to screw everything up so spectacularly in one night. She had been so full of hope at the beginning of the party. Things weren’t perfect of course, there was the awkwardness between her and Alice, and the issue of being turned to worry about, but things had been as close to perfect as was possible, and she had been so … hopeful that things would just get better.
And now … now it was hard to imagine things possibly getting worse. The Cullen’s were likely furious at her, likely hated her. Edward had barely been able to look at her when he had dropped her off at home. By the time she had left the Cullen’s house Jasper still hadn’t returned, and Alice … Alice probably wouldn’t want to be anywhere near her after she had been so stupid, and so clumsy and nearly caused her to lose the control she had spent years developing.
Bella tossed her hacky sack ball in the air with her good arm and caught it.
Bella tossed her hacky sack ball in the air with her good arm and …dropped it.
Registering movement near her window out of the corner of her eye, Bella turned her head to the side, her heart thumping powerfully in her chest as she caught sight of the petite figure delicately perched in her window.
“
Immediately Bella stumbled to her feet and began to move towards the raven-haired beauty, relieved beyond belief to see
“It’s okay,”
Bella immediately moved forward and wrapped her arms around
“Of course I’m not scared. I’m so glad to see you,” Bella whispered, blinking rapidly to try and contain the tears threatening to spill from her eyes. “I was so worried. I was afraid you would hate me.”
“Hate you?”
Her voice was full of regret and recrimination and she guilty averted her gaze from Bella’s.
“If I hadn’t been so careless, and … and so frickin’ clumsy, then none of this would have ever happened,” Bella responded shaking her head with remorse. “Only I could turn opening a birthday present into a UFC main event,” she continued disparagingly, her eyes far away for a second before they widened and she looked over at
“He’s fine,” she began softly. “He’s terribly embarrassed, as am I, but no real damage was done. Mostly he’s just terribly ashamed himself. Of how he reacted,” she continued, and from her tone Bella could tell that
Bella nodded, feeling horrible for putting Jasper through all of that, as well as
“Bella,”
“Don’t say that,” Bella said fiercely, the self-loathing in
“Bella,”
Only Isabella Swan would sit there holding her hand, telling her what a wonderful person she was after she had attacked her, borderline molested her and nearly killed her hours before.
“Bella,”
Her hand then settled around Bella’s waist, holding her loosely against her as they sat together silence,
Bella’s emotions were reckless, and dangerous, and in many cases seemed to go against natural human instinct. But, the honesty with which she lived, the depth of her feeling, her loyalty, and her courage (no matter how foolhardy it was) made
She was bad for Bella,
Bella leaned into
“I brought your presents,”
“You’re more than enough,” Bella sighed snuggling back up against
“I’d rather just sit here with you,” Bella said as she took the bag from
“Promise?” Bella asked, something in
“I promise,”
Then again, Bella figured, with all of the night’s turmoil there was little to no chance of any inappropriate touching happening, so
“Then I’ll open the presents,” Bella said smiling,
“You’ll find out soon enough. Go on and open it,”
Bella did as she was told and very, very, very carefully peeled back the tape from the edges. Once that was taken care of she then undid the wrapping paper with the utmost care.
“The CDs are from Edward,”
Bella touched them lightly, wondering what was on them, hoping that it was some of his original compositions. She’d have to wait to find out however.
“From you?” Bella asked smiling as she lifted the CDs up to see what was underneath, her eyes landing on the cover of what looked to be a very expensive, leather bound sketch book.
She knew that Bella was confused as to why she would give her a sketch book when she knew that Bella didn’t draw, but the answer to that question would be obvious once she opened up the book.
Intrigued, Bella placed the CDs on the bed beside her and then knocked the paper that had held the book off of her lap floor. She then placed the book down on her thighs. Once the book was settled, she reached out and slowly opened the cover of the book, a small gasp falling from her lips when she saw a drawing of herself on the first page.
“You drew this?” Bella asked softly, her eyes scanning the impossibly beautiful version of herself on the page in front of her.
“Mm hmm,”
“
Bella stared at her longingly, her eyes sweeping over
“It’s okay,”
Bella stared at her for a moment, and then knew, somehow, that
Bella sighed, as they kissed. It was soft this time, tender, like it had been on the beach. It was exactly what she needed at that moment, and she knew that she would never forget the way
“It’s late,”
“You don’t sleep,” Bella pointed out, cupping
“That’s true,”
“You’ll stay?” Bella asked with a touch of anxiety in her voice.
“I’ll stay,”
“I don’t know,” Bella said thoughtfully, standing up herself before she returned her eyes to
“This is beginning to feel like a ‘women in prison’ movie,”
Bella laughed and moved over to
“There aren’t enough cigarettes or disposable cell phones in the world to make me trade you,” Bella said happily, kissing
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Bella sighed contentedly and rested her head on Alice’s shoulder, her arm wrapping around Alice’s petite waist as she snuggled up beside her, pressing their bodies together as tightly as she could.
“Comfy?”
“Very,” Bella replied, smiling herself, her thumb stroking
“Honestly though, aren’t I an uncomfortable mattress?”
“I guess maybe you should be,” Bella responded thoughtfully, “but, no. You’re a very comfortable mattress,” she continued, choosing not to add ‘even more comfortable than Edward’, even though it was true. “Especially when it’s hot out,” Bella added, and she could feel
“Who needs air conditioning when you have me, is that it?”
Bella nodded. “You’re just doing your part for the environment. We all have to contribute in our own little ways,” Bella replied, grinning, angling her head up a little so that Alice’s breath brushed over her face as she breathed in and out.
“I’m already doing my part,”
“I didn’t know they had ‘Blood of Mountain Lion’ at Whole Foods,” Bella responded, looking up at
“It’s on sale this week. We’ll probably buy in bulk and freeze some,”
Bella propped herself up on her arm and looked down at
“You don’t really drink squirrel blood, do you?” she asked, her nose wrinkling a little at the thought.
“What? Is that suddenly too much for you?”
“I didn’t say it was gross and weird,” Bella responded, narrowing her eyes at
“Some folk'll never eat a squirrel/But then again, some folk'll/Like Al-ice the Slack-Jawed Yokel,” Alice responded singing the tune from The Simpsons, the words coming out slightly muffled due to her laughter as she sung. “Can I start calling you Brandine?” she asked a few seconds later, giving the name an exaggerated southern drawl as she started to laugh again.
“No,” Bella responded seriously, managing to hold the somber expression for almost three seconds before she broke out into a grin and added, “Not unless you want me to sic my smellhound on yer.”
“Silly goose,”
Bella laughed and bent over, pressing her lips against
Bella felt
“Doesn’t,”
“No,” Bella said, no hint of doubt in her voice. “I like kissing you, and you have to drink blood to survive. You can’t help that. Besides, you didn’t hurt me tonight, Alice,” Bella continued. “Surprised me a little, but you didn’t hurt me. And … I know you never will. I trust you Alice, I trust you with my life,” she finished. Her voice was low, vibrating with conviction, and her eyes were as serious as
Gently,
“You really should get some sleep,” she said softly. “You’ll have to be up in a few hours,” she continued glancing at the bedside clock. It was past
“Yeah,” Bella said yawning, her arm snaking around
Bella trusted her, and she wanted to trust herself, but she knew better than to believe Bella’s propaganda … as much as she wanted to. Control only went so far. A person could only be tested so much before they broke. She had reined herself in this time, and she could probably do it the next time, and the time after that. But how long could her luck hold? How long could her control last? How many close calls could they really have before her instincts overpowered will?
She could tell Bella, try to explain how hard it had been for her stop when she had her pressed against the wall earlier. She could tell her how, even after Bella had slapped her and she realized what had been going on, it had been a struggle for her to back away, and then to stay in one place. She could try to make Bella understand that she’d had to fight with everything that she had, marshal together every ounce of her will power to keep herself rooted in that spot. She tell her how her love for Bella had been warring with her instinct to kill, the internal struggle tearing at her until she had been half crazy with fear and frustration, screaming into the night for some kind of release.
She could try to tell Bella all of that, but she knew it wouldn’t work. Bella wouldn’t, or couldn’t believe her. She would say something like, ‘See how strong you are? This is why I trust you. This is why I’m not afraid,’ and then she would hug her and kiss her and tell her how wonderful she was.
The trust Bella had in her would never waver,
Bella was just so tempting, so very tempting, in every way imaginable.
It was impossible for her to resist.
The rules she had come up with were a paper wall, and their emotions were a flood. There was no way it could hold them back, protect them. They were lame-duck laws, utterly useless, and they were now lying in a broken heap at the bottom of Bella’s bed along with
“G’night,
“Good night, Bella,”
Bella’s eyes fluttered for a few seconds then closed; Alice’s body strong and secure beside her, quickly lulling her into a pleasant, dreamless slumber.
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Bella awoke the next morning feeling oddly warm, and knew immediately that something was wrong.
Her heart beginning to pound in her chest, Bella’s eyes flew open and her head immediately turned to the side.
She sucked in a deep breath, her stomach churning as she looked at the space beside her.
Bella placed her hand on the mattress where
Bella brought her hand up to her face, covering her eyes with it as she felt tears begin to sting her eyes.
Bella drew her knees up, and wrapped her arms around them tightly. She then rested her forehead against them. She sat still for a moment, breathing deeply, blinking again and again. After a few seconds however, a chocked sob escaped from her throat, and with the vocalization of her pain, she began to cry.
She began to cry, because somehow she knew, she just knew. In that ancient, primordial part of her that quaked at the sound of thunder, Bella knew, just knew, that she wasn’t going to see
To be continued …
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Date: 2008-08-15 08:19 pm (UTC)gosh, if I have ever seen a cliffhanger, this one is it.
nicely done though *g* thanks (even though reading the title I was expecting something closer to NC17 ... and looking forward to it)
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Date: 2008-08-16 01:23 am (UTC)(And, ahem, is the rating going up soon?...*lights candle and crosses fingers*...We want to make sure Bella and Alice make it on "that" PARTY train...All aboard!...;-))
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Date: 2008-08-16 01:38 am (UTC)Another brilliant chapter, my friend. The scrap book was a beautiful touch, as was Alice's thoughts before she leaves. Eagerly awaiting more!
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Date: 2008-08-16 01:39 am (UTC)Though, if you stop, you die... :)
Cheers mate
in ur shadowz, reedin ur fics
Date: 2008-08-16 02:14 am (UTC)Either way, the Alice and Bella banter is absolutely perfect, as is Alice's present. Looking forward to more!
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Date: 2008-08-16 02:39 am (UTC)Couldn't have put it better myself
Date: 2008-08-16 01:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-17 04:35 pm (UTC)*evil cackle*
even though reading the title I was expecting something closer to NC17 ... and looking forward to it
Don't worry, the NC17 is coming up I promise (and then you'll get quite a bit of it, lol) Bella's kind of like Lays potatoe chips that way, 'once she's popped, she can't stop'!
*goes back to feverishly working on story*
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Date: 2008-08-17 04:38 pm (UTC)Alice's gift to Bella actually made me go 'aww!' out loud.
That's because Alice is the perfect boyfriend, not Edward. Alice is Twilight's Serena van der Woodsen. *sigh* I want an Alice Cullen of my own.
P.S. Your Alice-con is perfection. I like to think she's picking up Bella's scent is about to take off to go and hug her, and kiss her, and never let her go.
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Date: 2008-08-17 04:40 pm (UTC)lol, yeah, the rating is going up soon (all the way up to NC17, yay!). Likely the sexin' will happen in part 7, since Alice still needs to come back and all, lol.
We want to make sure Bella and Alice make it on "that" PARTY train...All aboard!...
Once they're on it, they just keep on riding it and riding it and riding it. I mean really, after getting Alice naked once, who try again and again and again. And we all know how persistent Bella can be :D
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Date: 2008-08-17 04:45 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-17 04:47 pm (UTC)You're killing me (softly) with this cliff hanger stuff.
*evil cackle*
Though, if you stop, you die... :)
Oh, don't worry. There's plenty more to come :D Despite my evil cackle, I don't want to actually kill you, lol.
Re: in ur shadowz, reedin ur fics
Date: 2008-08-17 04:50 pm (UTC)All of the Cullen's disappear again, like in New Moon (it's in the first couple pages of the next update, so it's not too much of a spoiler), but emotionally Alice's exit is the one that impacts Bella the most given how things were between them before Alice left.
Thanks so much for commenting, I'm glad you're enjoying it. And I'll try not to keep you waiting for too long for the next part!
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Date: 2008-08-17 04:51 pm (UTC)Um ... ... ... ... really, really fun ones? lol
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Date: 2008-08-18 01:07 am (UTC)Anyhoo, great update. Loved the cute/funny banter. Can’t wait for part 6!
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Date: 2008-08-18 01:08 am (UTC)I don't want to actually kill you
Anotha good thing because that cherry's slowly growwing on it's tree.
Do cherry's even grow on trees?
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Date: 2008-08-18 04:07 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-18 04:53 pm (UTC)As the great philosopher Dolly Parton once said, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. Plus, danger is an aphrodisiac which just means that Alice maybe/possibly killing you makes it that much hotter. Sign me up!
And Edward mopes too much, damn. He's constantly PMSing.
Oh, I know. Edward is so unappealing, in like every way imaginable. I hate how he always qualifies their love/pain as well. Like he's always telling Bella that he loves her so much more than she loves him, or hurts so much more than she does. UGH! Get over yourself. No wonder she wants to sex up Alice after putting up with your bitching and moaning.
The only thing that is attractive about Edward is that he's being played by RPattz.
Makes you want to pet her fluffy head. Or, y'know, watch Bella pet her fluffy head.
Heh. Fluffy head. So true. Ashley Greene is such a cutie. She was great casting (assuming of course that she can act, lol)
Re: Couldn't have put it better myself
Date: 2008-08-18 04:54 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-18 04:56 pm (UTC)*Rubs hands together in anticipation*
Re: Couldn't have put it better myself
Date: 2008-08-18 05:01 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-18 05:04 pm (UTC)rofl. I really hope so. this whole ust thing drives even me crazy ;)
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Date: 2008-08-18 05:19 pm (UTC)I hope to have the next part up soon :D
P.S. I love your icon. I actually almost wrote 'blurg' in my response. Tina Fey has corrupted me.
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Date: 2008-08-18 05:22 pm (UTC)lol, oh man, Twilight is so bad. It's so bad. I know I'm writing femslash about it, but I really can't stand the books (well, mostly I can't stand Bella and Edward).
I'm glad that my story isn't as irritating and rage inducing as the books, though :D
Thanks so much for commenting!
Re: Couldn't have put it better myself
Date: 2008-08-18 05:23 pm (UTC)Worse than Bella and Edward??? Oh man, I better hurry up getting to the sex0r. Nobody should be made to suffer like that! Worse than Bella/Edward ... I didn't think any thing of the sort existed. *shudder*
*gets back to work*
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Date: 2008-08-18 05:25 pm (UTC)Yeah, it's driving them crazy too, loll. Once they get a ride on the sex0r train, there's going to be no stopping them, lol.
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Date: 2008-08-18 06:41 pm (UTC)*g* that is a common side effect. should be listed right under STDs.
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Date: 2008-08-19 01:54 am (UTC)LOL! So true. I love (and by love I mean hate) that SMeyer's perfect man, is really a chick's meddling and annoying semi-good friend, who you can't hang out with for more than a few hours without wanting to strangle her.
Kristen Stewart sounds like she smokes two packs a day and would probably make Edward fix her dinner while she scratches herself on the couch. ...I mean, what.
OMG! That hilarious and so true. Kristen Stewart is the butchest supposedly straight girl out there. She's grown her hair out since I thought she was a boy in Panic Room, but the Butchy McFabulous vibe lives on. I just cannot see Kristen Stewart putting up with Edward's bullshit. Like she doesn't seem like she'd put up with shit, and would sent someone like that packing. I like Kristen but it's odd casting.
RPattz is made of win and possibly cocaine. But that cocaine? Still made of win.
LOL! Oh, I just love that cokehead so much. He just seems like he's perpetually high, and like he'd be a blast to hang out with. I would totally do him, but if he was too high, I would totally just hang with him and ramble on about things as well. I really, really hate that they've tamed him amazing hair for this as well. I'm almost as in love with Rob's hair as I am with him. It's like got a personality of it's own. Oh, RPattz ... if it wasn't for Bella/Alice (which is gonna seem so much more plausible with Stewart in the role) I would never forgive you for getting me into this shitty series.
but even if she can't, she's hot enough to make up for it!
So true. All she needs to do is stand there and look good and I'll be like "BEST CUTEST ALICE EVER!"
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Date: 2008-08-29 06:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-11 07:14 pm (UTC)*dies*
*wakes up from the dead*
*reading next chapter*
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Date: 2008-12-01 10:05 pm (UTC)And I really would love to see Alice's drawings!
Great job on the characters. Bella is spot on with her self-blame and her trust in Alice.
I need an Alice icon...Anyone seen any good ones around?? *ggg*
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Date: 2008-12-22 05:11 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-01-02 07:03 pm (UTC)i cant wait to read the next bit
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Date: 2009-01-07 08:59 am (UTC)awesomely great chapter!
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Date: 2011-06-25 02:21 am (UTC)It really made me feel.