Title: The Edge
Author: Janine
Fandom: Twilight
Pairing: Alice/Bella
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: All characters are owned by Stephanie Meyer. I’m just borrowing them.
Summary: Alice goes to visit Bella in the aftermath of her reunion with her family.
Prologue: Golden Slumber
Part 1: Skating the Edge
Part 2: My Favorite Mistake
Part 3: The Rules of Attraction
Part 4: Shattered
Part 5: Breakin' All The Rules
Part 6: Good World Gone Bad
Part 7: 'Splaining
Part 8: Sway My Way
Part 9: Fuzzy Wuzzy Wonderland
Part 10a: The Honeymooners
Part 10b:The Honeymooners
Part 11: Complications
Part 12: Uh Oh
Part 13: All Falls Down
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The Next Evening
Alice turned off the car and removed the keys from the ignition. They were warm against her palm, and she closed her fingers around them, trapping and simultaneously killing the warmth as she leaned heavily against the seatback.
Forcing her eyes open, Alice gazed in front of her at the Swan residence and tried to will her limbs into motion.
Inside the house she could hear Charlie clomping around. He was removing his shoes and gun holster, and she realized that he must have arrived home not long before she showed up in the driveway. Upstairs, she could hear music playing faintly, but no other sounds which meant that Bella was likely immobile, sitting on the floor as she sometimes did or lying on her bed.
Alice closed her eyes and focused her senses. Listening carefully she was able to determine that Bella was listening to the Swinging 60s playlist she had compiled for her on her second day back in Forks. Alice smiled despite the feelings of anxiety she was battling. She couldn’t believe that at one-hundred and seven years of age she had made what was essentially a ‘mix tape’ for someone.
Alice shook her head, still smiling softly. She had it bad, but despite Nina Simone’s words to the contrary, it was good. It was very good. And, with that thought in her mind, Alice reached for the car door and made her way to the Swan’s front porch.
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“I was beginning to think you were planning on sleeping out there,” was Charlie’s greeting to Alice when he opened the front door.
He didn’t sound pleased to see her and she didn’t expect him to be. She hadn’t spoken to Charlie since the morning of Harry Clearwater’s funeral, but she knew that he blamed her for Bella taking off with no advanced notice, leaving only a hastily scribbled note behind on the table to explain her absence.
“No,” Alice said, smiling ruefully. “Just trying to gather my courage,” she continued, meeting Charlie’s eyes and holding them. “I know I’m not your favorite person in the world right now, but I really need to speak to Bella.”
Charlie stared at Alice for a long moment, his much larger frame blocking the doorway.
“You promised to look out for her,” he said, his eyes holding Alice’s unwaveringly.
He sounded tired, and broken, and Alice knew that the events of the past week (not to mention worrying about Bella for the past five months) had worn him down. Charlie was running on empty, and had been for a while. He didn’t need Bella disappearing for over a day added to his plate as well. And, Alice was certain that the situation took even more out of Charlie this time because she was to blame.
She had been, for a brief period of time, the one person Charlie really trusted to look after Bella. But, now, after her long disappearance and absconding with Bella – in what had to seem to him to have been an act of casually cruel caprice – Alice was sure that she was only one rung higher on Charlie’s shit list than Edward was ... if that.
“I did,” Alice murmured softly. “Nothing happened to her,” she said, forcing herself to hold his gaze as she spoke.
While it was true that Bella had not been hurt physically, Alice knew that many things had happened on the trip that had affected Bella emotionally and she hoped that the lie didn’t show in her eyes.
“You took her to him,” Charlie said, his eyes flashing with anger.
“It was the result of an … unfortunate confluence of events,” Alice said beginning to spin her tale.
She had been paying attention, keeping her figurative antennae up for any visions that related to what Bella was going to tell Charlie about their time away. She had picked up nothing and knew that Bella hadn’t told Charlie anything yet. She had probably still been asleep with he had left for work, and now, she had interrupted him before he’d had a chance to speak with her.
“An unfortunate confluence of events?” Charlie repeated, his lips twisting a little, and hearing him, Alice realized where that particular tone of Bella’s came from.
“Well, obviously I’ve been staying with you,” Alice began.
“Obviously,” Charlie cut in, not charmed in the least by her.
“And, okay so I got a call two days ago from Rose … our sister Rosalie,” Alice clarified remembering that Charlie had only met Rosalie very briefly at the hospital in Phoenix almost a year before. “She said that Edward had been in an accident and was in serious condition in the hospital. I … well, I had a visible reaction to that and Bella noticed.
“I wasn’t going to tell her anything, but I was really scared Charlie, and she kept on asking and eventually I told her what Rose had told me,” Alice went on dropping her head in shame. “And, well, you know how Bella feels about Edward, even now,” Alice continued looking up again, “and once she found out that I was going back to L.A. to see him, she wanted to come. I tried to talk her out of it, but Charlie,” Alice said pleadingly, forcing a beseeching look into her eyes. “I knew that Bella would go to L.A. anyway, even if she didn’t come with me. That she’d probably do something stupid like use her college money or something, so I figured that it would be better if she just came with me. That way I could keep an eye on her,” she said delivering the ‘I did it for Bella’s well-being’ kill shot.
“The last flight out was leaving only a couple of hours after I got the call, and we had to rush to the airport. I told Bella to call, but she thought that’d you try to stop her and she didn’t want to get into a fight, not … given all that was going on that day. I swear Charlie,” Alice said reaching out to touch his covered wrist, “I only did what I thought was best. I … I realize now that there were other things I could have done, that I could have called you, or made Bella call you once she was in L.A. or … or something, but … but …” she dropped her hand and head, “I didn’t think of it at the time. I’m sorry.”
When Alice looked up again, Charlie’s eyes weren’t as hostile as they had been before, but he didn’t seem happy or even placated either.
“Edward seemed fine when he dropped her off last night,” he said watching Alice closely, no doubt looking for any signs of subterfuge.
“Yeah,” Alice said nodding. “Rose got a call from Emmett who’d gotten a call from Esme who was with Carlisle, who’d gotten a call from Edward, and somewhere along the line a few key facts got messed up, and … well, Edward was in the hospital, but he wasn’t the one that was hurt. He’d gotten into a car accident with this kid from school, but it was the other guy who was in serious condition, but by the time the message got to Rose and she called me it sounded like Edward was the one who’d been badly hurt.”
“An unfortunate confluence of events,” Charlie sighed.
Alice nodded.
“Come in,” he said stepping out of the doorway to let Alice through and into the house. “I know …” Charlie began closing the door behind her. “I know that you were only trying to do what you thought was best. But, you really have to,” he paused and rubbed at his short hair in frustration. “You really have to try to be less of a teenager about things,” Charlie continued finally, shaking his head as he looked at Alice. “I was very worried.”
Alice nodded eagerly. “I know. I’m sorry. I … I thought I was being responsible, and Bella really was okay. Carlisle sent a car for us at the airport, and the whole time we were in L.A., Esme and Carlisle were there too. They came back with us on the plane as well, so Bella was under adult supervision almost the whole time. I swear. You can call them if you don’t believe me,” she added trying to make her rambling sound as juvenile as possible.
Charlie brought his hand up to his head and rubbed his hair again, mussing it up before his shoulders slumped a little and he nodded at Alice.
“Never … ever do anything like that again,” he said pointing a finger at Alice.
“I won’t,” Alice swore, meaning it completely. “I promise.”
“Okay,” Charlie said, smiling a little bit at her. He found it very hard to stay mad at Alice. She was just so cute and earnest, and Bella was so happy around her. “But Bella’s grounded, so don’t even think about trying to take her out of the house.”
Alice shook her head from side to side. “I won’t. I won’t even think about thinking about it,” she swore placing her hand over her heart.
“Go on, then,” he said waving towards the stairs, smiling and shaking his head as she grinned at him gratefully and then headed for the stairs. “Kids,” Charlie muttered.
And then he made his way into the kitchen to get a beer. He’d more than earned it.
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Bella turned her head to the side, trying to gather her strength as the door to her room began to open. No doubt Charlie was home from work and it was time for World War III to commence.
Releasing a deep breath, Bella turned her head towards the door and waited to meet her fate.
“Hey there,” Alice said smiling brightly, flipping her cell phone closed as she burst through the open door. She’d just given Carlisle and Esme a call to let them know that they might be hearing from Charlie, and filled them in on what lies they needed to tell to keep their story consistent with hers if he did.
“Alice!” Bella exclaimed hopping out of the bed and bounding over to Alice, hugging her immediately.
Alice laughed and wrapped one of her arms around Bella, using the other to close the bedroom door before wrapping that one around her as well.
“You came through the door,” Bella said a few seconds later, looking at Alice with a puzzled look on her face. She had thought that Charlie would have tried to make the house a Cullen-free zone, and was surprised that he had seemingly not only allowed Alice into the house, but given her permission to come up and see her.
Alice smiled and nodded. “Yeah, I knew I’d have to face the music sooner or later, so I decided to just get it over with,” she responded taking Bella’s hand in her own.
“You talked to Charlie?” Bella asked apprehensively.
“Yep,” Alice said nodding. “I think I managed to smooth things over … for the most part, anyway. You’re still gonna get grounded though,” she added apologetically. “I don’t think any amount of fast talk will get you out of that.”
“Grounded?” Bella asked, even though she wasn’t really surprised.
“Yeah, you’ll probably be informed when I leave,” Alice replied, eying Bella speculatively before she leaned forward and kissed her lightly on the cheek.
Bella beamed and dragged Alice over to the bed, pushing on her back until Alice lay down.
“So, what’s the story?” Bella asked, snuggling up next to Alice.
“Everything was an unfortunate confluence of events,” Alice said tightening her arms around Bella’s waist, holding her securely.
“Which means?” Bella prompted with a smile.
Alice laughed softly and the sound was music to Bella’s ears.
“Which means,” Alice began, “that I got a call from Rose where she told me Edward was in the hospital in serious condition, and I tried to keep it from you, but you brow beat it out of me … in my fragile, vulnerable state,” Alice continued, laughing as Bella ‘hrumph’d’ at the last part of her statement. “I decided to bring you to L.A. with me because I knew that you’d find a way to get there anyway. Carlisle sent a car for us, you were under adult supervision the whole time you were there once we got off of the plane, and Edward was fine. It was actually a friend of his that he’d been driving with who had been hurt and needed to go to the hospital, and Rose had just gotten it mixed up.”
“You thought of that on the spot?” Bella asked impressed.
“Yeah,” Alice said, smiling a little, happy that Bella thought she was clever. “We get pretty good at lying after a while. It’s not exactly an admirable quality, but it’s … necessary,” she sighed burying her nose in Bella’s hair and inhaling deeply.
A second later, Alice head jerked back, and her body remained absolutely still for three seconds before she leaned back in, nuzzling Bella once more.
“What?” Bella asked angling her head up to look at Alice. She’d felt Alice’s body jerk and it reminded her of when Alice had smelt Jacob on her, only the reaction was much more subdued.
“Nothing,” Alice said, her chest beginning to move again as she pressed her lips against Bella’s forehead. “I …” she said shaking her head a little. “I just wasn’t expecting to smell Edward on you.”
“Oh,” Bella breathed out, her thumb brushing against Alice’s arm lightly. “Are you okay?”
Alice laughed lightly. “Yes, yes I’m fine,” she responded. “I was just surprised. I’ve gotten used to … just you this last week,” she said shifting on the mattress, shimmying down slightly so that she and Bella were face to face. “It is a bit strange for me now,” she admitted, “but I’ll have to get used to it.”
“I don’t know if you will,” Bella said softly, looking away from Alice as she did, a look of surprise momentarily crossing her features when she realized that the possibility of her words being true didn’t hurt nearly as much as she thought they would.
“I don’t understand,” Alice said a few seconds later, her cool fingers brushing against Bella’s cheek, trying to encourage her to look up again.
“Edward came by this morning, after Charlie left for work,” Bella said, reaching out for Alice’s hand as she looked up again. “He knew about us.”
“I know,” Alice said exhaling nosily. “It’s my fault,” she continued shaking her head slightly. “When I let Aro read me, I had to focus my thoughts. I had to let him see everything, let him see my love for you so that he would believe my promise to turn you. Edward was scanning me as well, no doubt wondering what I possibly thought I could show Aro to convince him. And … well, he saw everything too.”
“That’s why he barely acknowledged you the whole trip back,” Bella breathed out, Edward’s strange behavior towards Alice on their return from Italy suddenly making sense. Edward and Alice had always been close, and his hostility towards her had been very jarring at the time. But now, it made perfect sense.
“How did it go?” Alice asked drawing Bella back into the present. “When he came over this morning?”
“Oh, it was fun,” Bella murmured in a strangled tone of voice, her hands clutching at Alice’s shirt for a moment before she released the material. “He was … he was … distraught.”
“That’s an epic understatement, isn’t it?” Alice asked, knowing that Bella was trying to make things more palpable.
Bella released a brief puff of air and sighed. “Yeah,” she breathed out. “After I confirmed it, he just went very, very still, and got very, very quiet. He was like a statue, for minutes. And then he started to pace around the room, talking softly under his breath and clutching at his hair, before he stopped that too, and finally looked at me again. The strange thing, the frustrating thing was that when he did, look at me again, I don’t even think he was all that mad with me,” Bella continued sounding befuddled and a little irritated. “He was more upset with himself … and with you, than he was with me.”
Bella shook her head again, her eyes roaming around her room for a few seconds.
“He treats me … sometimes it’s like he thinks I’m a child,” she sighed, annoyance flashing in her voice. “I know he means well, but … when phrases like ‘took advantage of your vulnerable state’ started to come out of his mouth, I lost it a bit,” she said shaking her head.
She was not a simpleton. Under no circumstances would she ever have fallen into to bed with someone because she was sad. Not to mention that it was an incredibly awful thing to have insinuated about his sister. Alice was one of the kindest and most considerate people Bella had ever known. If Alice had thought that she was even the tiniest bit uncertain about what she wanted, she never would have made love to her.
“I didn’t want to hurt him, but I corrected him quite forcefully,” Bella continued.
Her eyes had been on Alice the whole time she was speaking and she didn’t miss the flinch Alice gave when she mentioned Edward’s statements about Alice having taken advantage of her.
“And, before you can be a silly vampire,” Bella went on, cupping Alice’s cheek as she did. “You didn’t take advantage of me,” she assured her. “I love you, and I wanted to be with you. I knew exactly what I was doing, and I don’t regret any of it. And I told Edward as much,” she continued, her shoulders slumping a little then. “I told him that we didn’t mean for things to work out this way; that I didn’t want to hurt him, but that it would be disingenuous of me to say that I could stop it from happening again. I told him that I didn’t want to lose him, and that I’d like to work things out, but that I couldn’t … that I wouldn’t stop seeing you.”
“What did he say to that?” Alice asked her voice soft and hesitant.
“He said he didn’t know if he could accept that. He said he needed to think,” Bella replied. “He left right after that, and I haven’t seen him since.”
Alice nodded, and then pressed herself against Bella, hugging her tightly.
“I’ll understand if …” Alice began softly.
“Don’t finish that sentence,” Bella said cutting her off, knowing exactly what Alice was going to say. She’d had quite enough of the Cullen’s misguided attempts at self-sacrifice. She knew what she needed more than anyone else, and she was perfectly capable of making up her own mind. She’d made her decision, and frankly it couldn’t end up any more disastrous than what Edward and Alice had managed the last time they tried to be altruistic. “I meant what I said before. I have absolutely no intention of breaking up with you.”
“No?” Alice asked. Her tone was sweetly hopeful, and Bella realized that Alice had prepared herself for leaving her now that Edward was back in the picture.
“No,” Bella confirmed. “And I kind of want to smack you for thinking I would.”
Alice’s lips twitched a little at that. “Sorry,” Alice murmured, placing an apologetic kiss against Bella’s collarbone.
“You should be,” Bella whispered softly, stroking Alice’s arm tenderly nonetheless.
They lay together quietly for a few minutes after that, soaking in the peace of the moment, enjoying holding each other in their arms.
“Alice,” Bella said softly. She was loath to disturb the peace of moment, but there were other issues that were on her mind, now that the real world had intruded into the little paradise that they had been living in for those few days after Alice’s return. “Whatever Edward decides,” she began when Alice pulled back slightly and turned attentive eyes on her. “How are things going to work between us? I mean, between you and Jasper … and between you and me?”
“Well,” Alice said thoughtfully, pulling a way a bit more so that she wouldn’t get distracted by the feel of Bella’s body pressing against her own. “Jasper and I actually talked a bit about it,” she began watching Bella closely. “And, I think things could carry on much the way they did before … only I’ll be climbing through your bedroom window a lot more … if you want,” she said looking at Bella, her gaze hopefully speculative.
“I want,” Bella murmured in response, her cheeks colouring a little as she did.
She forced herself to think about the beginning of Alice’s statement, instead of what they would be doing when Alice climbed through her window at night.
What Alice said made sense. It was true that she would miss not being able to fall asleep in Alice’s arms every night. She had gotten spoiled having Alice all to herself for those few days. But, she had gone a long time without any contact with Alice whatsoever, and she knew that having Alice half the time was better than being without her entirely.
If Jasper could share, then so could she.
“What about after graduation?” Bella asked.
“We should probably all discuss it together at that time,” Alice began slowly. “But, I was thinking that, for a while anyway, we could continue in much the same fashion. I’m actually kind of sick of school, and was planning on taking a few years to work on my art. I’ve only just discovered that I have a knack for it, you know,” Alice said getting animated for a second before she settled down again. “It would actually work out perfectly because I’d have a really flexible schedule and I’d be able to split my time between you and Jasper at your universities … or university, depending,” she added thoughtfully, her head tilting to the side as she contemplated the possibilities.
“When you say ‘at university’, you mean for a semester or two so I can get a taste of the college experience, right? You don’t mean actually going through the whole four years. You don’t mean an entire undergraduate program,” Bella said, some panic and displeasure showing in her voice.
Alice licked her lips. “Well,” she began but Bella cut her off.
“Alice, I’ll be twenty-two by then! That’s far too long. Far, far too long. Besides, you promised the Volturi that you’d change me. And …”
“And I will,” Alice interjected her voice low and calm. “I haven’t changed my mind Bella. Besides, twenty-two isn’t really that old,” Alice continued off-handedly.
“It’s older than all of you except for Carlisle and Esme,” Bella said interrupting. “Even Emmett was only 20 when he was turned. And …”
“Bella,” Alice said interrupting the flow of words falling from Bella’s lips. “Ssh,” she said soothingly, stroking Bella’s cheek, trying to get her to calm down. “I have no intention of waiting until you’re 22,” she said, looking Bella straight in the eye. “I shouldn’t have been so offhand just now. I’m sorry,” she continued apologetically.
The subject was serious and Bella wasn’t in a frame of mind to deal with her general philosophizing about age.
“But,” Alice went on sighing, her words pausing for a moment.
“But what?” Bella asked sound a little calmer before, but still hesitant.
“But, I am going to need some time before I’m able to turn you,” Alice said a bit ruefully. “It’s not just a matter of me putting my mouth to your neck and biting you, Bella. I’ll have to take quite a bit of your blood, and I can’t do that yet without killing you.”
“But you’ve tasted my blood, Alice. At my party, you tasted it and you still managed to control yourself,” Bella said pleadingly.
“You overestimate how much control I had that night,” Alice said softly. “If the others hadn’t shown up when they did, things could have gone very, very badly. And that was only a taste. It’s like …” Alice continued trying to think of a human example that would work for Bella. “It’s like if you licked someone’s fingers after they had a piece of cake. You’d get a sense of it, of the flavor, but it wouldn’t be the same as having eaten the piece of cake yourself.”
Bella made a face at the analogy, but she understood what Alice was trying to convey.
“Taking the blood, straight from your veins, feeling it pump furiously into my mouth with every beat of your heart, will be another experience entirely. I could barely handle the baby step, Bella. I know, even if you don’t believe me, I know that I couldn’t handle turning you now, and I won’t try. I won’t risk it. Not when training will eliminate most of the danger,” she finished her voice strong and smooth.
She paused there, and ran her fingers through her short hair.
“I,” Alice began, before taking a deep breath. “Honestly, I hope it won’t take too long. My goal would be a year or two at most,” she continued.
As much as she would miss Bella’s warmth, and the sound of her heart beating gently as she slept in her arms, she wouldn’t miss the urges that would come over her occasionally to rip Bella’s throat out. She wouldn’t miss needing to stop in the middle of making love to calm herself down, or having to leave the comforting circle of Bella’s arms afterwards to hunt.
She was anxious to not have to be so terribly careful around Bella all the time. She wanted to be able to tangle her fingers in Bella’s hair as she came without worrying about crushing her skull. When Bella softly moaned “harder” or “more” she wanted to be able to comply without worrying that she was going to injure her. She wanted to be able to suck at Bella’s neck, to nip at it and not be tempted to pierce an artery.
Alice wanted to turn Bella. She did. But she had to make sure she was ready first.
“I’m really not opposed to you being turned. If …,” Alice paused and breathed in deeply. “If you really can’t wait until I’m ready then … then, I suppose you could have Carlisle turn you. But,” Alice said shivering slightly. “I’d like for you to wait.”
“Because you don’t think I’m mature enough to make such an important decision?” Bella asked a little morosely, though she didn’t attempt to move out of Alice’s arms.
“No,” Alice breathed out, “Because I’d like to be the one to do it. It can be a very intimate experience, very sensual, very special,” she went on, her voice lowering reverently as her hand rubbed Bella’s hip. “I want to share that with you. I know it sounds strange, but I want my venom to be the one that changes you. I want to bring you into our world.”
Bella shivered. She was fairly certain that talking about being infected with a fatal toxin shouldn’t have been romantic, but it was. She wanted to be changed as soon as possible. Despite what Alice said about being a few years older not mattering, she really didn’t want to be any older than the rest of them. But, Alice’s words moved her. She couldn’t deny the appeal of having Alice, of having her lover, be the person that changed her.
“How could I possibly disagree?” Bella asked softly, burying her face in Alice’s neck as she clutched at the raven-haired beauties shirt.
“All you have to do is say ‘no’.” Alice’s phrasing was light, but despite the casual nature of her words, her tone was serious.
Bella lifted her head and propped herself up on her hands, staring down at Alice intently.
“You really want to be the one to turn me?” she asked softly, becoming fonder and fonder of the idea herself with every passing second.
Alice nodded, her gaze never wavering from Bella’s.
“Then I’ll wait,” Bella said, lowering her head until her lips brushed against Alice’s.
Alice nodded, and reached up to stroke Bella’s cheek. “Thank you,” she breathed out softly. “I … you’ll see, Bella. It’ll be so much better this way,” she whispered. She stared at Bella for a second, and then she smiled widely, her eyes dancing. “I’m so happy right now,” she breathed out, awe-struck.
Bella smiled back at her, her own heart swelling with joy. Impulsively, Bella leaned forward and pressed her lips against Alice’s jaw, allowing them to trail up towards her mouth, which she then placed a slow, lingering kiss on.
“Do I have you for the rest of the night?” Bella asked softly, her fingers trailing up and down Alice’s ribs.
“I should probably go … later,” Alice sighed, tilting her head towards Bella. “Edward may come by later to see you and I probably shouldn’t be here if he does,” she continued, lifting her own hand to rest on Bella’s side. “You have me now though,” she finished, a slow, sensuous smile touching her lips as she held Bella’s gaze.
Bella knew that look and what it meant, and smiled. Then she slipped her hand under Alice’s shirt and leaned forward again, kissing her forcefully, as her fingers began to explore Alice’s cool skin in earnest.
“I’ll take it,” Bella murmured against Alice’s lips, her fingers dipping beneath the waist band of Alice’s pants, grazing the top of her ass.
“Apparently,” Alice whispered, a touch of humor in her voice as she arched her body into Bella’s and parted her lips, allowing Bella to control the force and pace of the kiss.
“Am I being too aggressive?” Bella asked pulling back so she could see Alice’s face, suddenly realizing that she had been begun to manhandle Alice the moment the raven-haired beauty had intimated that she would be open to some intimacy.
“Aggressive, yes,” Alice responded, smiling at Bella as she did. “But, too aggressive? I don’t think there’s such a thing,” she continued, stroking Bella’s bottom lip with her thumb. “You can’t hurt me … yet,” she went on. “You don’t need to worry about being gentle.”
“Well, I know I can’t hurt you,” Bella said blushing a little bit, a shiver running through her as Alice’s hand stroked her hip lightly. “I just, don’t want you to feel like … a piece of meat or something. Like I’m going to just try and hump you whenever you come within arms reach of me.”
“Oh, I wouldn’t mind that at all,” Alice drawled slowly, her eyes racking over Bella’s body, leering.
“I’m serious,” Bella said, Alice’s look making her body tingle. “I respect you.”
“I know,” Alice said, her eyes gentling as she stroked Bella’s cheek. “But so was I,” she continued. “I like that you want me,” she went on, her voice lowering a little. “I like that sometimes you can’t control yourself and just want to rip my clothes off,” she said kissing Bella softly, when she began to blush even harder. “Don’t feel bad for wanting this, Bella,” Alice continued, brushing her hand over Bella’s breast and feeling her shiver. “This is beautiful,” she kissed Bella again. “This is wonderful,” Alice sighed, cool, sweet smelling breath, fluttering across Bella’s face. “And honestly, I think about it all the time, too.”
“You do?” Bella asked, greatly relieved for some reason that being around affected Alice as deeply as being around Alice affected her.
Alice nodded, and then smiled a little sheepishly. “It’s not really romantic,” she began. “But if you had started by putting your hand in my pants instead of kissing me, I would’ve been ready for you,” she continued, shifting on the bed, the admission making her all the more aware of the pressure building between her legs.
Bella lips parted and she breathed in deeply. She hesitated for a moment and then her hands immediately moved to the top of Alice’s pants, undoing the button there and then pulling down her zipper. The moment she had created enough space, she then slipped her hand between Alice’s legs, a soft moan escaping from her when she felt how damp Alice’s panties were.
“Were you thinking about …” Bella began, her fingers unconsciously beginning to stroke Alice.
“Not consciously,” Alice responded, the words coming as a half sigh as Bella’s fingers began to move. “I don’t think I’m even aware of how excited just being around you gets me,” she continued, her lips brushing against Bella’s neck briefly. “I’ve never been so happy to be female,” she sighed, licking at Bella’s neck before pulling away, not wanting to tempt fate.
“Why?” Bella asked, her fingers pushing aside Alice’s underwear so that she could touch the flesh below directly.
Alice laughed, her hips arching up into Bella’s hand. “I’d have a hard-on every time you walked into a room,” she sighed, her hips stilling as Bella slipped inside of her, and then beginning to roll as Bella began to move. “We couldn’t go out in public together. Girl parts are much better, much more … discreet,” Alice continued her breath hitching as she rested her head on Bella’s shoulder, rolling on top of her as her hands gripped the comforter.
“Much better indeed,” Bella agreed as Alice shifted on top of her, her hips moving down to press on her fingers, her movements getting faster and faster. “What would you do with yourself if you couldn’t take me to the mall to play dress up?”
“I don’t know,” Alice said, a brief smile touching her lips, before her eyes shut again. “I guess I’d …” she continued, but she stopped speaking halfway through the sentence, and began to pump her hips frantically. “I … sorry,” Alice groaned.
And then she was coming, pressing down onto Bella’s fingers one last time as her inner-muscles began to clutch at Bella and her body shook and shivered, her head falling onto the pillow beside Bella as her orgasm overtook her.
“Shit,” Alice muttered a moment later, still to dazed to move. “Oh god,” she moaned, absolutely mortified. “How long did that take? Two minutes?” she moaned again. “This is so embarrassing.”
Bella stroked her back softly, pressing a kiss to her cheek as she removed her fingers from inside of Alice, after shocks causing her body to tremble again.
“I like that sometimes you can’t control yourself,” Bella began softly, smiling a little as she recalled Alice’s words from earlier. “I like that sometimes you can’t wait until I’ve gotten your clothes off,” she continued, happy to hear Alice chuckle a little, obviously remembering her words from earlier as well. “Don’t feel bad, Alice,” she went on gently, her tone serious now instead of teasing. “It’s …”
“Embarrassing?” Alice offered though her tone wasn’t as glum and discomfited as before.
“Flattering,” Bella responded, turning onto her side, her hand moving to rest on Alice’s hip, stroking it for a moment before she leaned forward and kissed her.
Sex was new to Bella but Alice had been doing it for quite a while, and it comforted Bella somehow to know that Alice wanted her just as badly as she wanted Alice. It gave her a thrill to know that even at 107 years old, that Alice still got so excited by her that she could come in minutes.
“Okay, fine,” Alice said, relenting. She still thought that coming that quickly was a rather poor show for a one-hundred and seven year old person, but she was willing to let it go for the moment. “Please, allow me to return the compliment,” she continued smiling.
She then moved her hands to Bella’s waist and grasping the bottom of her shirt, pulling and lifting until it was over her head. She then tossed it carelessly onto the floor.
“Well, if you insist,” Bella sighed, leaning back against the mattress, a tremble running through her as Alice’s cool hand began to stroke her stomach.
“I do,” Alice murmured, kissing her way between Bella’s breasts. “I strongly insist.”
To be continued …
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Date: 2008-09-17 01:32 am (UTC)lol, 2 mins. Nice.
I still say all of us femslash girls should get together once a year. . .
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Date: 2008-09-17 01:44 am (UTC)ol, 2 mins. Nice.
I'm sure Bella was pretty pleased with herself, even if Alice was kind of embarrassed by it, lol.
I still say all of us femslash girls should get together once a year. . .
This would be perfection. Damn, that would be such good times. Good, hot, gay times *dreamy sigh*
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Date: 2008-09-17 06:29 pm (UTC)I know! It's like, I can't think of anyone who wouldn't want to infected with Alice Cullen's fatal toxin. Alice is the ultimate dream boat! *thinks of Alice ... giggles and sighs*
Bella is one lucky bitca *glares at Bella*
why'd you have to stop there?
lol! Oh don't worry, there'll be plenty more GoGA. Those girls should have a few private moments shouldn't they? *wink*
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Date: 2008-09-17 02:36 am (UTC)"She was fairly certain that talking about being infected with a fatal toxin shouldn’t have been romantic, but it was."- It really, really was. It was touching even. I want Alice to infect me!
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Date: 2008-09-17 06:31 pm (UTC)Everyone wants Alice to infect them. "Infect ME, Alice Cullen" is totally the new "Molest ME, Georgie!"
Seriously, Alice is such a dream boat.
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Date: 2008-09-17 02:49 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-17 06:34 pm (UTC)Yeah, I get that. In my ideal world Jasper and Edward never would have existed and Alice and Bella would be free to be crazy, sexy, cool together to infinity and beyond. But Eddie and Jazz do exist *grrr* so know I've got to deal with them.
Edward, honestly doesn't really stand a chance. But Jasper's more complicated because Alice still loves him, and he's a much more understanding person than Edward. I can't fathom Jasper and Alice NOT trying to work out an arrangement where they would be able to be together (like they've been together for sixty+ years).
And that = complicated romantic situations.
Hopefully, you'll be satisfied with how it plays out.
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Date: 2008-09-17 03:43 am (UTC)love the chapter and the story as a whole actually :) it doesnt skim over some of the darker undertones that come with Alice controlling her blood lust but at the same time it's amazingly adorable. What Bella said about Edward treating her as a child in his efforts to protect her is totally true and a nice contrast to Alice.
However the sharing throws me off a little.. objectively Bella knows Jasper is being incredibly selfless and Alice obviously loves him but theres nothing objective about love, and i think sharing with the boys is a bad idea... vampires feel jealousy too after all- and that could get dangerous :)
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Date: 2008-09-17 06:46 pm (UTC)I'm glad that you're enjoying that element. I mean, really they are playing a very dangerous game, but because Alice is in love with her and is able to control herself because of that love it adds something kind of romantic to the danger.
What Bella said about Edward treating her as a child in his efforts to protect her is totally true and a nice contrast to Alice.
I always hated how controlling Edward was. He acted as if Bella would trip and die if he wasn't constantly around her. It's like 'dude, she survived 17 years without you, and she'll be fine for 70 more without you too!"
I'm glad that a better balance has been established with Alice here (caring, and yet also being willing to let Bella be herself).
vampires feel jealousy too after all- and that could get dangerous :)
Vampires definitely feel jealousy, and you'll definitely see the jealousy at play in the next couple of chapters. The sharing idea is what they hope will work now, but it's not necessarily going to work out (at least not for all of them *cough*Edward*cough*).
That being said, it's not impossible for sharing to work either so we'll just have to see how it plays out ;)
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Date: 2008-09-17 03:52 am (UTC)Nice chapter. Now if you'll excuse me, I have to go put my brain back together...
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Date: 2008-09-17 06:48 pm (UTC)It's hot isn't it? I know Alice was embarrassed, but Bella totally feels like 'the man' now, and you know she thought it was totally hot. Really, when is someone being that hot for you not great?
Oh and Alice possibly turning Bella? Yes, I'll take one of those plz!
Oh, you'll get it :D
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Date: 2008-09-17 04:27 am (UTC)...just in case you were wondering.
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Date: 2008-09-17 06:49 pm (UTC)I'll take good care of it! Blankie, slippers ... everything!
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Date: 2008-09-17 04:40 am (UTC)More please?
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Date: 2008-09-17 06:50 pm (UTC)I'll try not to keep you waiting too long for the next chapter :D
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Date: 2008-09-17 07:42 am (UTC)I have to admit that I check every single day to see if you've updated >.<
and tbh i actually squealed when i saw it was rated NC-17 :]
Hope you'll update soon
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Date: 2008-09-18 12:14 am (UTC)p0rn power! I'll talk to Alice and try to make the scene last longer next time :D
I'll try not to keep you waiting too long for the next chapter!
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Date: 2008-09-17 07:57 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-17 06:53 pm (UTC)They took off to Italy for two days to rescue Edward without telling Charlie (he was at his friends funeral at the time). So basically, Charlie got home from his friend's funeral to find his daughter missing with no explanation - well, actually she left a note for him saying where she had gone, but he didn't see it.
I'm glad the rest of the chapter was more
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Date: 2008-09-17 11:13 am (UTC)BUT BUT BUT, if you can make me swoon with:
“I like that you want me,” she went on, her voice lowering a little. “I like that sometimes you can’t control yourself and just want to rip my clothes off,” she said kissing Bella softly, when she began to blush even harder. “Don’t feel bad for wanting this, Bella,” Alice continued, brushing her hand over Bella’s breast and feeling her shiver. “This is beautiful,” she kissed Bella again. “This is wonderful,” Alice sighed, cool, sweet smelling breath, fluttering across Bella’s face. “And honestly, I think about it all the time, too.”
“I like that sometimes you can’t control yourself,” Bella began softly, smiling a little as she recalled Alice’s words from earlier. “I like that sometimes you can’t wait until I’ve gotten your clothes off,” she continued, happy to hear Alice chuckle a little, obviously remembering her words from earlier as well. “Don’t feel bad, Alice,” she went on gently, her tone serious now instead of teasing. “It’s …”
“Embarrassing?” Alice offered though her tone wasn’t as glum and discomfited as before.
“Flattering,” Bella responded, turning onto her side, her hand moving to rest on Alice’s hip, stroking it for a moment before she leaned forward and kissed her.
..i can probably take the sharing! i just adore you! of course, i adore alice more (duh), but you are so second on my list just because you make me swoon so hard!
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Date: 2008-09-17 06:56 pm (UTC)Well, everything isn't exactly resolved yet. Sharing seems like a good idea to them at the moment, but it's going to be more complicated than just shaking hands and creating a calender.
i just adore you! of course, i adore alice more (duh), but you are so second on my list
Second to Alice Cullen! I'll take it! That's not a bad spot at all :D
I'm glad that you were all swoony. Hopefully, they'll continue to make you swoon (sharing or not sharing, lol)
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Date: 2008-09-17 01:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-17 06:58 pm (UTC)Oh, there'll definitely be more. Don't worry ;)
i am glad Alice is female too
lol. Aren't we all? boy!Alice would make me cry a river of tears.
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Date: 2008-09-17 03:02 pm (UTC)secondly, while i understand everyone's feeling on the sharing thing, i also understand that its relative to the story. alice has been around for over 100 years, and her relationship with jasper is DEEP. but the way your writing it,also makes me believe in alice's sincere devotion to bella. and the fact, that it too is more then just a "thing" (which i suppose in vampire years, could be like a decade long "thing") so yeah, in so many words, i get where your going :-)
thirdly, edward sucks...pooooey in him. self-serving meanie!
and lastly, i wish i knew how to quote, i'm a dork...i'll have to figure that out, cuz i wanna quote like ALLLL the time
Y.R.H
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Date: 2008-09-17 07:06 pm (UTC)LOL! If only Alice knew that her two minutes brought all the girls to the yard! Seriously though, it's never a bad thing for someone to be that horny for you ;)
while i understand everyone's feeling on the sharing thing, i also understand that its relative to the story.
*hugs you*
alice has been around for over 100 years, and her relationship with jasper is DEEP.
Exactly! It's inconceivable to think of Alice just up and dumping Jasper after all of the time they have spent together, not to mention the fact that she still loves him deeply. Alice, unexpectedly found herself falling truly, madly, deeply, for Bella, but her love for Bella doesn't cancel out her love for Jasper and so you have ... sharing.
thirdly, edward sucks...pooooey in him. self-serving meanie!
Edward is the worst. And he's going to continue to suck. Jasper is a gentleman, but Edward is going to be a total douche about things ... because, well, Edward IS a douche.
and lastly, i wish i knew how to quote
Basically, LJ quoting is just italicizing text. So, to quote all you do is type:
[i]insert quote here[/i]
Only replace the [] with <>
Hope that helps :D
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Date: 2008-09-17 03:43 pm (UTC)Edward's reaction was so typical of Edward's.
The last part was scorching! You shouldn't have stopped there! We only had half the fun. *Hoping that you'll pick up where you left off* =)
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Date: 2008-09-17 07:14 pm (UTC)I understand where you're coming from with that. I'm all about the femslash and would love for it to be Alice/Bella with no complications ... but I cannot do it.
I just can't imagine Alice just up and dumping Jasper after all of the time they have spent together (60+ years!), not to mention the fact that she still loves him deeply. Alice, unexpectedly found herself falling truly, madly, deeply, for Bella, but her love for Bella doesn't cancel out her love for Jasper and so you have Alice in love with both of them ... and hence sharing (or at least the attempt to).
Don't worry though, the focus of the story is Bella/Alice and you have to sit through tons of Alice/Jasper scenes (and the one or two there are will be PG).
Edward's reaction was so typical of Edward's.
Edward is going to continue to be Edward (and thus deeply unlikeable) for the next few chapters. Here comes the emo! (don't worry though, emo is no match for GoGA!)
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Date: 2008-09-17 07:04 pm (UTC)yeah, it was my brain from trying to contain myself after being stupid enough to read this in the school library
but roflwaffles at Alice being a two-minute-man
they are so damn hotcutewonderful
I can has more plz?
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Date: 2008-09-17 07:17 pm (UTC)LOL! Two-minute man! As long as it's not a trend, it's cute. You know Bella is going to get a hell of a work out after this, as Alice tries to make up for her earlier performance though, so there are benefits ;)
I'll try not to keep you waiting too long for the next chapter :D
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Date: 2008-09-17 10:24 pm (UTC)Btdubbs, Alice losing control = hnnnnnnnnghuuuuuuuuh.
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Date: 2008-09-17 11:55 pm (UTC)I know, right! Alice is like all embarrassed, while every person with a sex drive is like "that's the sexiest thing ever!" I mean, if she did that ALL the time, maybe not so much. But every so often, it's nice for your lover to just want you so much they can't control themselves, lol.
I've finally caught up and will be leaving feedback on each chapter I missed, jsyk.
Hope you enjoyed it! I look forward to the comments :D
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Date: 2008-09-17 11:17 pm (UTC)You're just mean...in this moment I don't like the TBC that much lol But Alice wanting Bella so much is plain damn hot and yeah...romantic. Though I have to agree with Alice, being a girl is so much better. Personally I don't mind that much the Jasper/alice thing, as long as we don't get any Edward/Bella, that's fine. Like always I'm enjoyed this chapter a lot, can't wait for more =)
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Date: 2008-09-18 12:04 am (UTC)*sigh* Even when Alice has an embarrassing moments, it's hot and adorable. Seriously, it's good to be Alice Cullen.
Personally I don't mind that much the Jasper/alice thing, as long as we don't get any Edward/Bella, that's fine.
Oh, thank goodness. One person who doesn't want to kill me/thinks that I'm insane, right now :D Don't worry, Bella/Edward is not meant to be. They will try at first, but it will quickly crash and burn because Edward is an emo douche, and Bella is totally not down with putting up with his shit anymore.
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Date: 2008-09-18 04:58 pm (UTC)Anyway, I managed to stay away from this for 14 chapters. FOURTEEN! But noooooooo, Janine wrote it so I had to read it and now I'm hooked and want MOAR! What exactly are you doing to me here?!
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Date: 2008-09-18 11:02 pm (UTC)If it's any consolation to you, I kind of hate myself as well. I rant and rant about these books, but I did get through two of them, and now by ficcing them I am exposing them to others and I feel so guilty. But, Alice and Bella are hot ... and if you read this you won't have to read the books ... so in a way it's a public service ... right? Right?
and now I'm hooked
Mawhahahahahahahahahhaahahahahaha!
want MOAR! What exactly are you doing to me here?!
Well, there's much moar to come. This monster is probably only about halfway through!
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Date: 2008-09-19 11:13 am (UTC)Re: guh!
Date: 2008-09-21 02:55 pm (UTC)can't wait for more <3
Next parts up now! Hope you like :D
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Date: 2008-09-21 03:00 pm (UTC)This was exactly how I felt about it. It started of strong-ish, and then about 230 pages in, I just put it down and didn't read it for a long time. Then it ended on a fairly good note. The only reason I bought New Moon was because I heard Alice and Bella were mega gay for each other in it, though, lol!
Then I found your fic and your version of Bella/Alice and it totally got me motivated to finish Twilight and voilà, there really was some nice A/B action in the last few chapters :)
lol, The Visitor chapter made that book. I will never get over the awesome of Alice cradling Bella in her lap and hugging her and kissing her cheek endlessly. Not to mention, that book made me love Alice forever for the line "I think she's having hysterics! Maybe you should slap her." LOL Oh, how often I wanted to slap Bella in that book (especially at the beginning).
I'm glad that you're enjoying the Belice (and the Waldsen before it). I'll warn you I didn't make it through Eclipse however, so read at your own risk. Five chapters of that book was enough to cause me to shake with barely repressed rage for hours upon hours so I had to give up.
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Date: 2008-12-02 10:50 pm (UTC)“Because you don’t think I’m mature enough to make such an important decision?” Bella asked a little morosely, though she didn’t attempt to move out of Alice’s arms.
“No,” Alice breathed out, “Because I’d like to be the one to do it.
Sooooo much better than the book *ggg*
And this was really hot, too.
Two minutes, WOW!
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Date: 2008-12-22 09:27 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-01-08 06:49 pm (UTC)sigh. lovely chapter. how did i ever live before this fic? no, seriously, how?
Me! Me! I wanna play too!
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